5.06.2004

My "skinny pants" (y'know, that pair we all save coz we swear some day we'll fit in them again?) are too big. And I don't mean just a little. I had to look at the tag twice when I put them on today to make sure it was the right pair. They're so baggy my mom offered to alter them for me so I can have a butt again...

2.05.2004

What makes me happy today?

I found a spiff site where you can download all kindsa free fonts and you can sign up to receive the font of the day every day. Hooah!!

7.05.2003

friends to cry with
warm rolls with the soup
familiar faces
playmates to make work less boring
laughter that's contagious
uncontrollable fits of giggling
being able to go home again
working in the window on a warm, sunny day
hoping for the best and having it happen
making peace with being single
simplifying
crawling between cold sheets on a hot summer night
catching up on reading your mounting book collection
big, open backyards for kids to play in
sparking a child's imagination
less is more
a full ink cartridge in the printer
a new blank scrapbook
exceeding your expectations
having someone refer to you as their "best friend"
when he finally admits he's in love with you
honeydew melon
lotion
Gay Pride parade
Boystown, Chicago, Illinois
an environment where gay couples can be just as comfortable as straights
your biggest cruch from high school remembers you (first and last name even)
discovering that Hobby Lobby has a clearance section
doing "the wrong thing" because it's the right thing for you
milkshakes
warm, juicy watermelon
playing in the sprinkler
something being better than you expected
birthdays
surprises
Get Well cards
secret admirers
liking your job
liking your co-workers
pain reliever
a busy day at work
premonitions
catching them off-guard
emoticons
internet groups
buttons
donating to charity
knowing each other too well
car-dancing
singing too loud with the radio
good triumphing over evil
rereading a great book
a breeze blowing thru an open window
going out without a leather jacket
removing an obstacle
receiving praise
running into old flames
reliving fond memories
giving yourself permission
ambience
happy meal toys
jelly bracelets
hiding
meditation
chanting
Oscar Wilde
colouring book
revelling in individuality
doing a "ring check" before you start flirting
when that guy who used to make fun of you is giving you a second look
baby shoes
patty cake
little kisses
baby steps
sunny morning
sleeping in
BBQs
memories
Mom
dreams
necklaces
charms
magic
movies
driving in the country
friendship
smiles
unnoticed grins/shyness
unplanned adventures
unofferred love
beauty
old things
unexpected parties
animals
books
time to be with my thoughts
fantasies
clouds
rain that's warm
storms
prayers
family photos
splashing in puddles
wildflowers
trees blooming
the smell at the beach
inside jokes
video cameras
holding hands
hugs that go on too long
candles
babies with food on their faces
crickets on warm summer nights
New Orleans
blues music
climbing trees
cheering people up
good luck
people from Ireland and Scotland with cool accents
the written word
epiphanies
being someones favourite
train rides
knowing where else you've seen an actor
scary movies
kungfoo movies
knowing it's going to be alright
someone saying "I should've listened to you"
when someone wants to hang out with just you
being considered "the life of the party"
finding our someone wants to be like you
being admired
watching someone read my list
doing something nice for yourself
making someone smile
li'l kids making silly faces
tongue fotos
changing your mind
breathing space
being trusted with a secret
makeovers
feeling good about yourself
midnight margaritas
dancing in the rain
pillows
blankie
a good night's sleep
cocktails
the birthday song
having nothing broken
arranging dried flowers
quizzes
questionnaires
duct tape
faux finishes
the smell of lilacs
open windows
central air
cool night breezes
dashboard toys
teddy bear boys
being up front
playing by the rules
spiritual music
keeping a clear head
getting a new perspective
he smiled at you first
being able to be happy for your friend
knowing you're the highlight of someone's day
learning to have self-esteem
being specific
he cuddles you in his sleep
passing inspection
being commended on your service
being able to be there when you're needed
friends you can count on
being there to see your sister's kids grow up
transcending
being memorable
having the willpower not to call him
hugs so good they can make you cry
kindred spirits
finding a common bond
when thinking of him doesn't hurt you anymore
standing up for yourself
patience
quality time
yard sale season
flea markets
down time
catching up with old friends
when someone comes to you for advice
puppies
tax returns
theme music
sandpaper tongue kisses from the cat
the crowd cheering when you sing
snowball fights
sledding with friends
bad "B" movies
that indescribable feeling you get inside when your cheeks blush
finding your own voice
discovering a hidden talent
old photos of friends
scrapbooks
old boyfriends whose new girl doesn't look as good as you
finding out those girls who were too good for you in high school have 3 rotten kids and a husband they don't like
neon-coloured ink pens
crayons
painting
glue
cats purring loudly
people who greet you as tho they'ce missed you for 10 years when you just had lunch yesterday
really good bad 80s bands
big hair
white eye shadow
great wigs
red lipstick
the fact that hair always grows back
jelly beans
chocolate
blank books
jumping in a cold lake on a hot day
hot tea
ice tea
someone holding a door for you
not having to fill the silence
great storytellers
big, rubber super bouncy balls
raisin bran
long-handled red plastic spoons
a fresh roll of film for the camera
warm blueberry muffins
Grama's for Thanksgiving
finding out his mother likes you
fresh french fries
long talks with Mom
listening as my parents lose themselves somewhere along memory lane
bunk beds
slumber parties
Christmas lights
a robin bathing in a puddle
living in a small town
homemade Chicken and dumplings
hiding Easter eggs
stars
moonlit walks on the beach
self-help books
Barnes and Noble
IBC rootbeer
making dream wedding plans
men from Venus
stuffed animals
Anne Geddes
eating blueberries warm, right off the bushes
lying in the sun with your eyes closed and your belly full from an impromptu picnic
drag queens
not running out of toilet paper
homemade fudge
singing along loudly with the radio
car dancing
running into a friend you haven't seen in sooo long
pen pals
stickers
pretty stationery
flowers blooming in your little patch of yard
a baby's smile
when someone says "I love you"
getting a better job
creating something with your own 2 hands
museums
happy endings
good triumphing over evil
lunch with friends
poetry
writing
friends who listen
teddy bears
tea parties with clothes that are too frilly and hats with too much ribbon
playing dress-up with Mom's old curtains
gooey grilled cheese sandwiches
the chocolate chunk in the bottom of the drumstick cone
the love a cat
whiskers tickling your nose and waking you up
opening your eyes to the big, fuzzy ball sitting on your chest, meowing & knowing he just wanted to hear your voice
telephones
sunshine
books so good they make you cry
long lunch hours
your own car
birds singing in the morning
talking to trees
pink, poofy prom dresses
being "kidnapped" by my friends
flamboyantly gay friends
knowing he missed you
schwoopie people
slow dances
homemade valentine's
finally returning that thing you didn't know you still had
running away
PCF glitta
getting real mail
cute little biscuit boys
catchphrases
being with someone who speaks your language
learning something new
getting a second chance
someone admiring your work
making music
revelations
daydreaming
having other options
knowing what you want
a good hair day
soldiers coming home safely
peace
men who love children
having someone to come home to
watching cats playing
listening to children rambling
re-discovering an old friend
acquaintances becoming friends
school supplies
making love
finding a new path to spiritual awakening
mood music
recycling
catching up
finally being able to
crossing off everything on your to-do list
chick flicks
starting over
re-discovering something you love
re-prioritizing
making your own rules
respect
knowing who your real friends are
office supplies
"a bouquet of newly sharpened pencils"
shiny, happy people
history
roots
leaving your comfort zone
fresh cut grass
flowering trees
flowers blooming
"volunteer" plants
Easter Egg hunts
spring
thunderstorm telephone conversations
rain showers
kids playing in the yard
wrestling with little brothers while they're still small enough for me to have a chance

barefeet in the grass
soaking up the sun
sunning by osmosis
playing "Follow the Leader" with the neighbourhood kids
getting naked toes caught in the holes of Grammie's afghan watching movies
eating warm watermelon in the sun at the family picnic with the juice all down your arms
water gun fights
laughing till you cry

reading a book, sitting on the bridge behind Grampa's trailer and hearing nothing but the creek bubbling over the rocks below and the mountains animal sounds
happy people
photographs
being remembered
being a "social deviant"
restaurants where you can sit down a let someone serve you
aardvarks
platypii
being "checked Out"
abababazisivott!
digressing from topic
being yourself
role playing
being "at one" with your personalities
the light in your eyes
being noticed
not dissappointing your parents
conquering your fears
not having to wear shoes
believing
independent thoughts
having control of the stereo
friends who don't make you watch that movie again
pet names
being flirted with
good health
belly dancing
playing with clay
travel
candles
a sense of purpose
acceptance
waterfalls
rainbows
good testerosterone action flicks
bad boys
jumping in feet first
hopeless romantics
complex people
being "evil"
enlightenment
spreading the love
eye candy
ethically disoriented
being able to make him smile when he's grumpy
hurt comfort
surrendering
"baby girl"
that twinkle in his eye
not having to ask
bumper stickers
being considered "the cute one"
knowing where you come from
personal success
determination
having things in common
experiencing something for the first time
you can't stop smiling
dating esbionage
him admitting he likes you
getting pulled over by the one nice cop in Westville
anticipation
making it official
possession
belonging to someone
a man worth waiting for
following your heart
an awkward hug
a kiss on the cheek
inventing board games
having stupid fun with your friends
finishing the story
wearing pajamas all day

big family breakfasts on Sunday morning with cinnamon rolls, apple "waves", fried potatoes, french toast, bacon, scrambly eggs and butter braids
men who wear cologne well
houseplants that live
family traditions
looms
crochet needles
new apartments
being (a little) selfish
re-decorating
feel-good music
self-esteem
rejecting
refusing to go back down that road
being respected
being beautiful from the inside out
laughing till your stomach hurts
fan fic
little blue tongues from blueberry candy canes
your hands in the dirt
when your flowers bloom
when they love their gifts
when they buy you something you actually like
clubbing
finding inspiration in unexpected places
Candy Cane pie
being the only one who's good at something
homemade fudge
fresh-baked cookies, warm from the oven
atmosphere
someone else to cook
genius lessons
mad scientists
M & Ms
catchphrases
being together for the holidays
snowplows
getting over it
fluffy pillows
resolutions
encouragement
the look on their faces
that look in their eyes
someone making you blush
Santa Claus

7.04.2003

discovering a new art form
being right
support
skinny-dipping
life-altering moments
quitting time
not getting caught
the present you get on Xmas Eve to hold you over till morning
surprising a friend with something they've wanted for months when they didn't think you remembered
veggie burgers that taste good
finding the action figure you've been looking for
opening a box of crayons
French dips
reading a story aloud
footies
hot cocoa and staying in
sunshine
laughter in your house
.... and the person who brought it
stand-ups that scare you in the middle of the night
big anime hair
"the trail we blaze!"
artistic "East Village" artist friends
sing-a-longs
really good stereos
memorizing the totals
friends who "get it"
people who are happy to see you
being welcome
not working at McDonald's during Beanie Baby season
Top 10 lists
intuition
visions
divination
food (good food)
Baker's Square pie
bliss
roaming
working the same schedule
freshly baked anything
telephones
Cartoon Network
being "validated"
Girls Night Out
building bridges
reconciling with your friend and realising you never really left
living alone
loving pets
courage
not being afraid to
renewal
pay-per-view
people who fit you odd-shaped puzzle pieces
getting to see your movie on opening night
the movie theatre experience
being on the same wavelength

12.31.2002

hopeless romantics
true friends
clear vision
making faces
observation
watching quietly from across the room
eye contact
dandelions
green grass
hide and seek
homebaked bread
couplons for stuff you actually buy
finding a penny heads up
making up
bathroom breaks
meeting new people
that new relationship feel
pop tarts (not the kind you eat)
friends who come looking for you
board games
getting to say good-bye
Denny's
chivalry
knowing someone's infatuated with you
childhood games
flirting
being looked at
being a mentor
"extended" family
the family you choose for yourself
dollar stores
clearance aisles
scrapbooking supplies
altered books
hot chocolate with marshmallows
s'mores
Christmas cookies
holiday get-togethers
chocolate chip cookies
Lennox Dairy
the giant Santa on the courthouse lawn (even better when he still had his tree)
root bear floats
roasting marshmallows
rainbow toe socks
doilies
hermaphrodidic i
milkshakes (with real milk)
puppies
wrestling (but not th TV kind)
bubble gum
blowing bubbles for children to chase
sledding down the big hill
big little brothers
big sisters (even when they're not so big)
not feeling the need to be angry
refusing to choose
having nothing you need to do on your day off
ballroom dancing
interracial breeding
anything (and definitely anyone!) Irish, Scottish or Celtic
the moon
patriotism
windows and doors (on your car) that open
air-conditioning
falling asleep with a purring cat on your chest
changing your mind
being rescued (often from yourself)
when your crush initiates the play
blonde hair and blue eyes
being friends first
imagination
surrender
finally writing the letter
having options
opportunity knocking
independence
being on your own
going out for coffee
the truckstop
road trips
fresh fries
secret admirers
payday
saying yes
getting what you want
wanting what you have
getting more that you expected
being pleasantly surprised
rollercoasters
company
knowing you were missed
bright rainbow colours
finding the silver lining on that cloud that's been following you
being put on a pedestal
being worshipped (from afar or up close- either works)
finding out you obsession was obsessing over you
expedient service
reading other's online diaries
surfing the web
being remembered
telling someone how much you love them while they're still alive
reckless abandon
being considered trustworthy
nuts on your sundae
fast food
waitresses (and waiters)
soup (with rolls)
crackers
Thanksgiving dinner
parents who still want their kids to believe in Santa
exact change
cows
sheep
frogs with rain slickers and umbrellas
plays
snowmen
snowball fights
antique malls
resale shoppes
play-fighting
growing old together
focus
determination
stubbornness
family pride
Mom being wrong for once (if it ever happens)
fresh air
alone time
apartment-warming parties
encouragement
homemade paper snowflakes
getting off work
not having to watch the clock
having nowhere you have to be
having to buy new clother coz your's are too big
trying a new nairstyle
unusually unusual
comforters and quilts
gazing balls
frogs
fresh floers
the smell of the Bath and Body Works store
big, red Ford trucks
faeries
believing in something
secret handshakes
people who enunciate
sunshine
customers who read the menu
friendly people
people you can trust
time to think
straightforwardness
space heaters
caffeine
sugar
time to breathe
finishing a project
unsolicited compliments
crowds
being invisible
temporary insanity
having the nerve to....
parties
travel
taking the road less travelled
doing things your way
speaking your mind
feeding your soul
getting your way
intimacy
secrets
whispers
pillow talk
not needing to fill the silence
not having to censor yourself
refusing to walk on eggshells
being obnoxious
forgiveness
release
disco
polyester
leisure suits
Spice Girl shoes
homemade scarves
water
ballerinas
handmade dolls
magick
art
museums
parks
taking back your life
comfy pajamas
elation
adventure
endings
beginnings
making new friends
....and reconnecting with old ones
self-esteem
self-confidence
"just because" gifts
ugly monkeys
sending flowers
school plays and concerts
seeing things from a child's point of view
innocence
knowledge
wisdom
really bad accents
newsletters
mailing lists
blessings
the goddess and god
nature
the changing of the seasons
trees
leaves
flowers
animals
fat squirrels
penguins
angels
being able to say no
young love
rebellion
growing up
....and refusing to
buying yourself toys
believing
fuzzy, furry clothes
family photos
remembering
a clear conscience
homemade cards from children, misspelled with love
inspiration
muses
writing correspondence
hand-written letters
love letters
butterflies in your stomach
music only you can hear
getting caught up in the moment
moving on
hip bones
chibis
Smallville
bald men
little ones
The Salvation Army
Anime
Naked Michael Rosenbaum (with chocolate sauce)
Naked Tom Welling
nasty Hobbit piles
stories about nasty Hobbits
piles
slug-bugs
funoodles fights
beaches
joy
Poke (mon-ahontas-onos-a dot-er)
Christmas ribbon
school pictures
the wall of bald
incense
candlelight
wrapping Christmas gifts
church bells ringing
walking barefoot in the rain
courage
amazement
unconditional love
tears of joy
4-lane highways
straight roads
family crafts
mechanics
Daddys
true friends
gloves
winter coats
shortcuts
snow
hills and mountains
a working vehicle
being able to leave
calling in dead to work
creative outlets
therapy
Alice in Wonderland
birds
a complete lack of logic
diversity
"the time has come, my friends, to talk of other things- of shoes & shirts and sealing wax, of cabbages and kings"
macaroni & cheese
back massages
the first slow dance
formalwear
parents who still show affection
organization
redecorating
collage
decoupage
paper scraps
owning a gift made by a loved one who is gone
sun tea
belly laughs
honesty
true friendship
soul bonds
nonverbal communication
running away
concern for others feelings
stupid, silly forwarded emails
learning something new everyday
finally being free of him
getting closure
getting lost
songs with ridiculous lyrics
song lyrics that read your mind
listening
.....and being listened to
candy
staying out way too late
getting straight answers
crossing off everything on your to-do list
or burning your to-do list!
spontanaeity
free webspace
insta-websites
tickling
family night
a kitchen full of laughter
giggling
listening to children tell stories
spinning around & around till you get dizzy
impromptu poetry
"groaner" jokes
inside jokes
homemade cake with messy frosting
chasing children
butterflies
catching lightning bugs
shooting off fireworks in the backyard
the county fair
handmade birthday cards
looking at family photos with the youngins
your own uniqueness
teddy bears
getting to see each other again after a long separation
helping your big sister plan her wedding
being a bridesmaid in your sister's wedding
fresh-cut flowers
the anticipation of the first date
.....then telling your grandkids about it
shopping with your sister for her wedding gown
....and being the one to pick it out
butt-dancing Santas
Christmas angels
charm bracelets
the Christmas dept. of the store
love
running into an old friend
really bad 80s music
cheesy 80s music
musicals
Grease
Disney movies
karaoke
shooting stars
group ritual
swimming with no one else around
hot showers
spontaneous travel
hiking the hard trail
magnetic poetry
children singing
Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream
sleep
new clothes- even if they're just "new to you"
piggy-back rides
balloon animals
stupid thong jokes
belly-dancing
sidewalk chalking adventures
wrapping presents
homemade Christmas ornaments
guardian angels with crooked halos
finding secret notes
birthday wishes
way too big ice cream sundaes
messy birthday kids
"pet" squirrels
West [by God] Virginia
walking barefoot in the creek

12.30.2002

blue eyes
having to be patient against your will
curiousity
crushes
taking things slowly
dreams
the 80s
cats
having your own place
Yule/ Christmas
Yule trees
popcorn garland
paper chains
masks
ballerinas
shyness
quiet boys
letting my mind wander
paint
stuffed animals
country music
radio
little boy grins
Christmas socks
toe socks
birthdays
birthday parties
friends
Twizzlers
Mortal Kombat: Annihilation
Harry Potter
Ford trucks
little bitty drive-thru windows
baby carrots
weddings
finding out your ex is miserable
heat
showers
diaries
Pringles
stickers
"that song" playing on the radio
compilation tapes
the first kiss
nervousness
discovering each other
falling in love
dancing
staying up too late
sleeping in
really bad movies
homemade gifts
having enough
waking up every day
guilty pleasures
innocent stalking
"un"healthy obsessions
Irish and Scottish accents
sisters
little brothers
all your family living nearby
nieces and nephews
new love
starting over
daydreaming
honesty
bracelets
thumb rings
garage sales
summer
the sun setting over the West Virginia mountains
the sun rising over the Pennsylvania hills
books about happy things
tongue photos
email
having a job
having a home
being able to "go home"
family
hugging someone who needs it
being hugged when you really need to cry
not having to play games
toys
children
babies (especially when they sleep)
reincarnation
nature
enlightenment
open minds
freedom of religion
being an American
pets
driving to Canada for the weekend
laughter
good remakes
rollerskating
poetry
freedom to make big mistakes
learning experiences
bands with weird names
bisexuality
nature worship
having parents that you can actually talk to
being who you are
being "out of the closet"
packrats
Spring clean-up
dumpster diving
tacky furniture
lounge lizard retro funky style
beauty without make-up
having a "glow in your aura"
sharing a wavelength
"Believe" by Cher
complications
having "enough issues for a subscription"
PMS drugs
hand-me-downs
giant teddy bears
scrapbooks
memoirs
believing in faeries, Santa Claus, and the Easter Bunny
magick in the ordinary
revelations
stones tumbled by nature
inner light
start
Orion
dashboard toys
bobblehead dolls
bobbyheaded Chihuahuas
Rocky Horror
rabid fanboys and girls
backpacks
Tetris
Vin Diesel
hair dye
cable TV
BBC America
decorating shows
the internet
cameras
old photos
developing that roll of film you found in your bag
scissors with funny edges
archival quality
magazines
inspirational quotes
books
SARK
naps
scarves
being "too Broadway"
gaydar
flashback conversations
family picnics
dad telling his stories over and over
postcards
baking Christmas cookies
a kitchen-full of kids frosting cookies
reminiscing
prom night
.... and the morning after
talking llama movies
Auntie kisses